Coming Into Lights

Banging, banging, banging
fists into doors.
Running down hallways,
away from them,
as far away from them
as is inhumanly
possible. The nowhere
where we are going
is not through any of
these doors; it is out.
It is into the open,
through that plastic gate
that you can't just
nudge open.
It requires shoving
and pushing,
all the things
your mother told you
never to do.

Are You Afraid to Grow Up?

Doubt outweighs;
Everything explained is anything but
understandable.
I wish all were different,
But we never do change.
Age—she’s slow and crippling
and sudden and quite gripping.
I’m turning back the page.
Fear of making payments
and dying alone
sets
in.

Faith ... that we can be saved.

Not long after I purchased the necklace I'm currently wearing, I broke it trying to detach it from the packaging. I was devastated that I could so quickly ruin something so quickly.

Then, I remembered the super glue. I could fix it! ....maybe. There was only one way to find out. I took the necklace over to my kitchen counter, opened the super glue, and stared at it. I was so scared that I would make a mess, that I would screw it up, or that I would never be able to fix it.

I finally resolved that I could always buy another and squeezed the tube. Too much glue came out. I panicked and tried to smear it around with my fingers. The necklace stuck more to the counter than itself.

I had to try several more times (after attempting to pull the pieces apart too quickly) before the glue was able to dry. Patience, I told myself. Don't jump ahead. There is time.

Eventually, the glue did dry. My necklace was repaired. I'm wearing it right now. It stands for having faith that God can fix us, if we're willing to wait.

He uses tools much different from super glue. His "glue" is much stronger. It lasts for an eternity. However, the application is done in many steps. It takes a long time. We have to be willing to wait for one step to be completed before moving on to the next or the whole thing could fall apart.

My necklace isn't perfect. It has a small white-ish lump on the left side of the chain where the glue barely holds it together, but it's holding. We may not be fixed in this life the way we want to be, but God has perfection waiting for us in heaven. We just need to have faith that he will follow through.

~Written in December 2011~