Hey, I'm back from the abyss!

Welcome back, Allison!

Oh, thank you, Allison.

You are quite welcome, Allison.

Yes, I continue this tragic conversation with myself post-summer hiatus. Lots of things have changed in the past four months. Below you will find some music I'm spending huge chunks of time listening to now that I've been reintroduced to technology as well as some crap I spewed out this morning that may slightly resemble poetry. I hope to be posting here again somewhat regularly. Welcome back to insanity, anyone who still cares.

Music:

Panic! at the Disco's new stuff (especially the music videos, cause duuuude)

looooots of Silversun Pickups

A Fine Frenzy

Bastille (looove)

You Me At Six (especially When We Were Younger)

Clarity - Zedd & Foxes

Safe and Sound - Capital Cities

Selena Gomez's new album

(okay here's the camp person in me coming out. no judgment please??)

Don't Ya - Brett Eldredge

Surprise - Family of the Year

Crash My Party - Luke Bryan

See You Tonight - Scotty McCreery

The Weight - The Band

It Goes Like This - Thomas Rhett

Poetry:

Reflections on a Life Not Lived

(or how you know

when the time has come)

I’m stuck in a mode of wanting to be

where and when and who I am not.

My mind sifts through images

like a slideshow of moments

that piece that horrible puzzle together.

A mess of beautiful exceptions to rules

we will not succumb to.

Force and pressure

outweigh stress and fatigue on the scale of life

and whatever balance we lack.

Eternities spent lingering.

What do we know of patience?

We live for each next moment

regretting what has not come.

4 Counting days in a

3 mantra does nothing

2 for one’s

1 health.

0

I wear my clothes with scars of memories abandoned,

dirtied over or thrown away

or washed from the senses

and mindless of connections made by each

strained worn decoloring thread.

My friends, I commend you

for surviving this landing,

the comeback, the lostness,

the empty days, monotonous discoveries

of what has just begun.

Think of it all again and again

until you tire of your own lament.

But do not dare leave it behind,

the bad and the worse and the end.

Hold all of these things as you live in new moments

and do not ever forget.

A Poem a Day...

I've been writing a lot--almost a poem every day, sometimes more than one, sometimes other things. It's mostly rambling and scribbles (sometimes I will actually just scribble for a while). Most of it is crap, and the rest is usually too personal for me to be comfortable releasing to the internet. However, I have a few gems I'd like to share. Here is one of them.

Don’t ask me to let you go.

I will not do it now.

I will let you go when we’ve lived

this out, this grinding,

future-driven life. I will

let you go when eternity shines

from the tunnel’s light behind us.

I will let you go when I can’t help

but have forgotten who we are.

Don’t ask me before we have watched

the sun set

and the stars break through

black curtains of the night.

Don’t ask me

before the actors bow

and the lights come up for good.

I won’t do it unless

the children are grown;

we’ve taken care of it all.

Don’t ask me to watch you leave

before the end has come.

Music Inspiration (part deux)

Back in '11 (wow that feels weird to say), I posted a list of songs I listened to while writing. I've stopped listening to almost every song on that list in the past year and a half, so I thought I'd make a new one. Partially due to the influence of friends and the fact that 80% of the music I currently listen to comes from my roommate's computer, I walk a fine line between obscure and top 40's. You have been warned...

Die Young - Ke$ha
All Time Low - The Wanted
If You Only Knew the Rain - Balmorhea
Let Me Die - the Classic Crime (and pretty much all of Phoenix, really)
All I Want - Kodaline
Evening Ceremony - Active Child
Sugar, We're Goin Down - Fall Out Boy
Work - Jimmy Eat World
Hurt - Johnny Cash
For Blue Skies - Strays Don't Sleep
Migraine - Twenty One Pilots
More Than a Feeling - Boston
I'm Lost Without You - Blink 182 (and I Miss You, and All The Small Things, but come on duh)
Rushes - Lowercase Noises
The Harold Song - Ke$ha
(actually just everything by Ke$ha)
Oblivion - M83
You and I - Washed Out
You and I - Nero
You and I - Lady Gaga
You and I - Future of Forestry
(okay you can ignore the last two I was on a roll)
Disenchanted - My Chemical Romance (*tear*)
Closer - Kings of Leon
I Write Sins Not Tragedies - Panic! At The Disco
The Unwinding Cable Car - Anberlin
Don't Fear (the Reaper) - Blue Oyster Cult
Holding On To You - Twenty One Pilots
Try - P!nk
Just Give Me a Reason - P!nk & Nate Ruess
Silent Lucidity - Queensryche

BONUS FOREIGNERS:
Je Veux Te Voir - Yelle
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